The quarters end always brings something unexpected.
I feel very much as the disciples when Jesus broke the news He is to leave them to give them something greater.
The passage speaks of a truth that is hard to swallow.
I find myself confused as of late asking the question “what” to God quite frequently.
We so often myself included, say “ God we expect you to act and move in this way, why?”
We order to avoid any possibility of confusion.
We exclude the possibility of the unexpected and perhaps rob ourselves of great joy in the truth God is acting for our ultimate benefit.
I’ve has a lot of long nights on my knees, as of late, trying to swallow this truth.
My stubbornness and need to control has hindered a great progress from fruition.
I see this very clearly.
And all the faithful work of my Maker was for me to swallow this truth.
Tonight that truth makes my heart skip a beat. The outcome was worth every tear and painful wrenching of my heart.
If I were to choose to believe, I am no longer a part of that equation.
I may not have realized it but I’ ve been wrestling with my maker for a long while.
I’m finally being honest with myself.
The disciples in their confusion trusted Jesus.
He never ceases to surprise with what He has in store. Every day will be an unexpected turn.
But if we, if I, choose to believe and can manage to tarry in the weight of waiting something great lies in store.
And along that journey there are glimmers of that eventual outcome.
JG
