Sobering Reality

Points in life
drastic and changing
sobeing revealing

It's been one of those...

The sober reality of the work
upon my knees could I be stubbornly refuseing ?

Finding myself struggling
my lack of faith.
inadequate in the understanding

Trying to please but never really doing

The ways I want the writing
to become the clairity in a lack of understanding

Letting words of struggle and honesty speak far surpassing

... constantly to my knees in sobering reality.

Nothing Short of Breathtaking

Let me first begin by stating how much I love these times where I actually get to sit down and write. They seem these days few and far between. I am most certainly in a season where God has every moment occupied. You know though I love this time because as I write Jesus Himself continues to do incredible things in His sons and daughters around me and allows me to take part in those things which He is doing...which is so cool!

For those who I haven't talked to in a while I will catch you up with what God has done for the past three weeks or so...

This weekend, I got to visit one of the guys in my bible study. The point of the trip was to see Yosemite but God gave us who went on the roadtrip something more wonderful. We(Elise, Elise and I) were able to sit and chat with this guy in my study and see how God had given him a completely new heart . Basically God changed the course of his life over this summer...that is my God! What God has done is His heart is nothing short of breathtaking.

I got to visit another guy in my bible study as well the weekend before this one and got to be truly honest with him about those areas of my life I let very few people in...it was incredible to see how God blesses truth and how satan bitterly opposes that. There are only a few moments where satan has come flat out and attacked one of my fellow brothers or myself. I know that there is something right about letting Truth be the path we blaze because I am experiencing opposition in ways I have never had before.

The previous weekend to that one my parents came out for my birthday and it was such a blessing to spend time in fellowship with them just simply enjoying their company. I got twenty presents from Elise that weekend...she is pretty wonderful.

The rest of this week is going to be a time where God is going to start preparing my heart for what He is doing to do this upcoming year on the Cal Poly campus and how He is shaping such grand things.I am pretty stoked. I may get to sit down with another guy from my study who spent time in Japan ministering to the Saints. I am pretty excited!

Anyways that is about it...I am still sore from my eight mile hike in Yosemite so I am probably going to take a nap and perhaps go have lunch with one of my roomates. Hope all you all are doing great and God is blessing you increidbly as You continue to seek Him out in Holines and truth.

JG

5 Days in the Country

I was recentley blessed with a few days off from work and took the oppurunity to go visit a dear friend in the country. Hay bales. Country music. guns. old beat up cars. pick up trucks etc. I think you get the idea. It may have simply been the company but there is something enjoyable about just getting away from life for a while taking time to reflect and just enjoy driving in the backdrop of mile after mile of corn field with your closest friend.

And I have to believe that when you experience such a thing as what i experience in that friendship... there can be no doubt it is gave by God alone. How could I not rejoice in the fact alone. And God reassures me that I have only touched the waters edge of the greatness that is God. How wonderful is that!

JG

Such Love

I feel it. something new.
mere breath and strokes here describe it, such a thing.
dwelling thoughts.only one
such love.

Could it be?

Strike me.
All this....Reveal yourself?
Pencil marks. forever to the end
This story.

...and so it begins...

clarity.light
Divinity. breath

Could it be?
such love?

Into my eyes. Come ressurect the Dawn.

JG

The Lion's Gift

The night it is merely beginning
Spirit’s light upon tears of praise
I will forever be lost in Your eyes

Glistening reminders all through the night
These tears of St Lawrence
The Lion’s gift to welcome the night
This treasure found in the darkest of place.

Meant for you and me
Subjected to futility and small things
Ordained for a much grander destiny

Glistening reminders all through the night
These tears of St Lawrence
The Lion’s gift to welcome the night
This treasure found in the darkest of place.

The night it is merely beginning
Spirit’s light upon tears of praise
I will forever be lost in Your eyes

Simply Remembering

I was having a conversation with my mom the other day. She is finishing up writing this study on Isaiah currently and she read to me the beginning lines to her study.

Her God given introduction to this study got me thinking.

For a long while God has been telling me He is going to make all things new after all He has me in a place in my life where nothing is secure, steadfast or confident but Him alone.

I realized last night though that I have been focusing so much on this new that I forgot what has been already. I think this is a dangerous place to be for a Christian because if we are not willingly choosing to focus on what we were we will never really know what we have become or what God has done within us. This leaves God really no option but to bring to mind a remembrance of specific things through most often circumstance..

He is calling me to things that I should have actively sought out a long while ago but it is now through circumstance that I am to do these things.

It is the idea of a brick builder. How can you lay another stone if you know not where the foundation stone is or what stones are built already?

I forgot the location of my past.

It has always been below those bricks of the present.

Remember those who led you who spoke the word of God to you and considering the result of their conduct imitate their faith.
-Hebrew 13:7

In this new I have neglected much of what I see God now clearly saying.

He is calling me to understand that God is present through all of history not only the present.

Jesus Christ is the same yesterday today and forever
-Hebrews 13:8

God wants me merely to recognize who He has been in order to know who He will still be even more so as I begin to truly see who He is.

I feel incredibly stupid and foolish that I find myself in this place…anyone else?

I write this not to say” oh look I’ve figured it out “cause if anything I have learned that I am stupid and am probably yet still not getting what God is teaching me.

But the beauty of it all is that we work out our faith it is not something we merely arrive at.

So tonight I write amazed at all God is doing that He waits in His prefect will to do what He is doing and never ceases to act within His nature. Revealing more and more about himself as we enter into the deepest of friendships with this God It is all laid out precisely as He would have it…in perfection.

We should not really wonder about the timing of it all. God has that covered.

JG

From Chaos to Order

"You have to understand where you have been to know where you are going"

"You have to understand what has formed you to understand what you are becoming.... "

JG

In this time...

Sermons, quiet times, conversatons,text messages ,circumstance, prayer, fellowship and the like.

They all point to one thing.

God is bringing fullest brokeness.

There is seldom a thought that is fixed on one sole thing in this culture, seldom one that we at least can pick up. I know this though that God is grafitiing His name over it all. There is nothing his signature is not over. If we can merely be observant and keep our eyes open...he will grant us sight. If we keep our ears attentive...he will unlock what was once truley deaf.

It is in this time that I am reminded of the depths from which I was saved. The filth I am.

It is in this time God continues to shape destiny in such a way that there is no place I can go except my knees.

It is in this time that I find myself in fullest oneness. Singing the notes my heart was tuned to make music from before world's birth. I scarce belive I find myself in this...Glory to Jesus alone!

JG