Oh...Ministry

It seems the chaos that seems to fill my mind a lot as of late has finally materialized into something. I find myself tonight ready to write...to fill the blank spaces that are all around me with an awakening in a sense within me. I will not forget that God still has much more awakening to do within me, but I will be content on this plateau before the next hill.

There has been something stirring within me as of late...mainly my christian approach to minsitry and my heart condition. In the season I am in God is calling me to a complete redirection within myself: transforming all of who I was and still in part am whether good or bad. He is making all things new. He is calling to me to do all things new.

The biggest lesson has been simply that it was never about the converts it was all about ourselves all along. That will probably seem a paradox to some because we have a tendancy to care so much about people's perceptions of us, we lose sight that perhaps we should be spending less time caring about what people think of us and more on how God views us.

Matt and I have begun talks on the the triune nature of God as of late and he asked a very perplexing question " does every aspect of the trinity love everyone?" After some pondering and some prayer here are my thoughts: God is by nature angry and only loves those who are redeemed those who love Jesus, this is shown by a father loving his kids more than every other kid, Jesus loves everyone regardless of slavation status, he died for everyone. The spirit is the interesting one he doesn't even love christians occasionly. He loves those who are in a process known as sanctification those christians that are growing and moving closer to Jesus.

We need to honestly consider this we are loved by God and we are not loved by God. The only thing that matters in this life is us and the internal revelation that is happening and overflowing out of us as christians.

This is what God has been teaching me about ministry it's not means of doing it, it is about "the mean" by which we can minister.

This way is simply letting the hate and love of God for us compel us. It says in Hebrews 12:14

"...be holy; without holiness no one will see the Lord. "

It says that unless we are holy we will not see God. We cannot hope to see God work, we cannot expect the spirit to move unless we are being a holy people. We are not called to condemn people but to work on the plank in our eye before we go out and condemn people for the speck in theirs. This is ministry...ministry foremost should be about santification and discipleship spurring each other on to holiness.

15See to it that no one misses the grace of God and that no bitter root grows up to cause trouble and defile many. 16See that no one is sexually immoral, or is godless like Esau, who for a single meal sold his inheritance rights as the oldest son. 17Afterward, as you know, when he wanted to inherit this blessing, he was rejected. He could bring about no change of mind, though he sought the blessing with tears.

18You have not come to a mountain that can be touched and that is burning with fire; to darkness, gloom and storm; 19to a trumpet blast or to such a voice speaking words that those who heard it begged that no further word be spoken to them, 20because they could not bear what was commanded: "If even an animal touches the mountain, it must be stoned."[c] 21The sight was so terrifying that Moses said, "I am trembling with fear."[d]

22But you have come to Mount Zion, to the heavenly Jerusalem, the city of the living God. You have come to thousands upon thousands of angels in joyful assembly, 23to the church of the firstborn, whose names are written in heaven. You have come to God, the judge of all men, to the spirits of righteous men made perfect, 24to Jesus the mediator of a new covenant, and to the sprinkled blood that speaks a better word than the blood of Abel.

25See to it that you do not refuse him who speaks. If they did not escape when they refused him who warned them on earth, how much less will we, if we turn away from him who warns us from heaven? 26At that time his voice shook the earth, but now he has promised, "Once more I will shake not only the earth but also the heavens."[e] 27The words "once more" indicate the removing of what can be shaken—that is, created things—so that what cannot be shaken may remain.

28Therefore, since we are receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, let us be thankful, and so worship God acceptably with reverence and awe, 29for our "God is a consuming fire."


That is the beauty of the community we are in here in SLO. It is not about those who are mature, it's not about the weakest . It is about us as a group of believers being in real fellowship and experiencing the life God intended us to experience. Spurring each other on to real holiness and letting that be the water that drives this storm that is coming.

Granted we have some major work to do as a chrisitan community here...but I know once we begin to realize that we are a body not individuals we begin to understand humility and we begin to understand what exactley God is calling us to as a people. He is calling us to the personal relationship not the public. Letting Him dictate and judge us not others.

I love that fact...it's about letting go in order that we might gain more...it is a beatiful and effective surrender.